Please Youtube ...

Google is ruining Youtube. Like seriously. People like me are losing so many subscribers / views. Youtube is what I need to get noticed and it's some peoples full time careers. And we're all losing out because of Youtube working with Google. Youtube understood those of us who want to work propperly and earn a fan base by trying hard and being honestly noticed. But google has fucked it over. People like myself, Onision, Shane Dawson, etc are seriously suffering because of Youtubes newer bad choices. What now?? It's not fair. They will lose their careers and I will have no idea how to get my career going anymore, because Managers, A&R guys etc have cought onto the talent on youtube but only if someone already has a fan-base, how can I get a fan-base now that people are leaving Youtube? Youtube will be down by 2014. Definately. Youtube has forgotten what we love about it and soon it'll be gone like Myspace. Thanks google+..... for ruining one of the best inventions within the last decade.
Honestly youtube the best thing you could do is to put it back the way it was a year or two a go and GET OUT of this contract with google that's over-complicating and ruining the whole website. There are some people who will literally lose their houses if Youtube is ruined the same way Myspace was. If Myspace had stayed the way it was in 2005 it would still be huge, and I can see the exact same thing happening to Youtube within the next year.

Emo bullshit.

People are so quick to pretend they know all about everything. Call MCR emo, because you know all about them... you probably haven't even heard their music you just jump on what other people say. I hate this whole 'emo' stereotype. It's short for "emotional" uhhh isn't all music supposed to be emotional?? And then they say it's because of people who sing about death and upsetting stuff, even people like Tom Jones have mentioned suicide in some songs, doesn't mean he's 'emo'. Stop using that damn word. Also, the only reason MCR have wrote about death is because they're used to hearing their favourite bands write about similar stuff, e.g the smiths but no one ever calls the Smiths 'emo' do they... MCR have only mentioned death to try and STOP people being depressed and suicidal. Now people stop being ignorant.

Your Appearance

I wouldn't judge someone for having plastic surgery, (except those nipple hardeners... wtfz) but I don't see a point because you'll never be completely happy with the way you look. I'd love to change loads ot things about myself but if I get one thing done I'll want loads, not to mention how much money it cost that you could spend on things much more important than hoping to one day look 'perfect' which is impossible, so why worry about it? Just be happy with your imperfections.

Also, people always get upset about how they're judged (especially myself), firstly the people who complain about how you look are just insecure themselves, secondly, EVERYONE gets judged, you can never make anyone happy, skinny girls are 'twigs' and 'anorexic', big girls are 'fat', pale girls look 'ill', tanned girls look 'orange' the list goes on and on and on. So just ignore it instead of trying to change all the time, as long as you're healthy don't let your appearance make you so unhappy. Yes if you're weight is causing heart problems or something, get help, but not if people just thing you have big thighs or a big stomache or something else silly like that. There's nothing wrong with a bit of change but let's have some reason.

Update time

So, as you've probably heard from me I'm trying hard to start a band recently with le Damien (guitarist). The other day we tried out Ryan (a drummer who i creepily asked if he has a band and if i could have his number...), and James and Matt (bass and guitar) who offered. It went reaally well, we had a laugh and got a few songs like DOWN, but I'm not really sure what's happening with those two cause they're like getting back with their old band :(. We liked the drummer though (Ryan) so if nothing goes wrong with him we have 3/5 band members; Me, Damien and Ryan. So we're looking for a hella cool bassist and guitarist, image/personality/dedication/talent are all quite important so it's kinda hard work... muh :(

On a lighter note.. it's been sooo warm in England this past week :) I went out with Damien shopping for a while and got a nomnom shakeaway milkshake (strawberry cheesecake, oreos and marshmallows) oh yes, i've seen Hannah a few times, sat out in the back with my cat alot and read up on my Kerrang magazines and that's about it. And I saw Sam ofcourse, the boyfriend..

We have two week off from college for Easter tomorrow so I'm hopefully gonna try EXTRA hard to find a job and find some cooool bassists and guitarists to try out, so yeah, BYE

Grandma

So it's just gone past mothers day and it's been about 18 month since my grandma / lil mama passed away, so I figured I'd say a little somthin about her :)
When I was youuunger, I used to stay at her house all the time, it was awesome, I always got the big chair and she'd tickle my feet for me even though I moved every time because I'm so ticklish lol :') she used to have this game on her TV which was basically just about buying strange fish and feeding them but I looved it :D
We used to play countdown on wallpaper because she didn't really bother with paper, and we used to have 'midnight feasts' even though it was about 8pm lol, and she'd have made me like chicken legs (I wasn't always veggie) and sandwiches and stuff :D she was hella cool. Ofcourse when I became a teenager I started spending less time with her but I'd still speak to her alot, she'd always say how much I ment to her and a couple of years ago I started watching Shane Dawson (youtube), and he posted a video of his grandma in the hospital and he was crying, and I realised I hadn't really spent time with my grandma in like a year or something, which isn't good... so I went to visit her a few days later and we just kinda watched TV and stuff. It was only about a week or so later than she passed away, so it's kind of lucky I saw that video, I should have visited her more often to be honest, but we all forget.

Happy Mothers day!

So I didn't get anough sleep because I was playing World of Warcraft trying different relms and stuffss... but I had a dream that Skrillex got me on stage to sing and I sang some Amy Winehouse and he said I was amazing :) lol awesomes.
Think I'ma visit grandmas grave with mum and that's about it.. not many plans again. Maybe I can pluck up the energy to make a video. Or maybe just play more world of warcraft :S I do have a college gig tomorrow though which I'm just nerrrvous about ... sigh. HAVE A NICE DAYYYY <3

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Hey :D yes so uhm yes
Had a bit of a band practice kinda thing today, nothing definate yet though, kinda bored.. hmf. Excited to go the cinema on Tuesday :D haven't been in so long, i want some popcorn and ice blast aha :)) been loving youtube vlogs recently too.. i want the hunger games to come out so i can watch that. And it's so long untill I'm playing or watching any gigs :(
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I need a job so bad :(
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I love sleeping with sirens so much, only heard them recently, they remind me of pierce the veil, who are also AMAZING <3 gah they're both soo good, wish I could pull that off. And wish I could go warped tour AGAIN but have to live in friggin England :S muhhh
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